2014

It is that time

I want

Xmas time

To hear

A voice

So much

The lunar eclips

Sometimes you look at the sun

Pain is there

Maybe 21/12

Silence

I don’t

In little things you smile

Looking

It hurts to do nothing

Where to start

A day of driving throughout a country I always think of as grey and dull, surprised me with smiles and green.

Laying in bed I reflect on a day of Murphy, a load of words and sentences.

With two

Stuck

Blue lights

In eyes

One

When I think

In white

Being blind

Pink waves

Green and blue

In a blue sun

A place

Clouds drawing

I love

Church bells

In Chinese

Waved fabric

In things

Life

Behind a door

3 years

Music playing

Having dreams

01:01 and still awake – I guess I should sleep.

In so many things I do, I’m useless, in so many things I have no clue.

A melody

This bed

Driving

White corners

A rainbow

A moment

Bed, time and stories

I know I said

Every hour

A time

Psychiatric patient

4

Brown hanging

I wonder what made me snap

Have you ever lost it

Pink

Colours are safe

App by app

Today I discovered a side of myself that is not me. I did things I never did, I said things I never thought before. I’m crazy, as I saw things I did and did not knew.

To sit

I’m not giving up

This is my last post

If I had to choose

#limitless

Week

Cipressa tree

Writing here

A million stars

In small moments

Laying here I think of your body against mine,

a dream started with waking up in a dark room, not knowing where i was, and all around me i found people with masks.

In so many ways these last days have been a rollercoaster, discovering feelings, emotions, colours and moments I did not even knew, or did not remember. But what to say …

Going mad

To feel pink

An idea

Keeping sain, how do you do it ? Am I crazy, have I got a mental disorder?

How used I am to having you in my life,

To fall in love

To have a colour

Zien en voelen wat leeft

To have colours

To see scarlet

In writing I’m free, I’m happy. In touching this keyboard and letting my colours flow free over the screen, that is when I let go.

Have you ever sat down like I do right know and thought of what is and has happened to you lately.

I beg you, to have patience with everything unresolved in your heart and to try to love the questions themselves as if they were locked rooms or books written in a very foreign language. Don’t search for the answers, which could not be given to you now, because you would not be able to live them. And the point is to live everything. Live the questions now. Perhaps then, someday far in the future, you will gradually, without even noticing it, live your way into the answer.

There is time

Have a cake

Melancholy

As clouds fade

Life’s length or shortness

I believe in pink. I believe that laughing is the best calorie burner. I believe in kissing, kissing a lot. I believe in being strong when everything seems to be going wrong. I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls. I believe that tomorrow is another day and I believe in miracles.

Seeing light

One of the most horrible tools

Just letting you fly

Brown and grey lines

No books

A little text

Swipe

In white

Thinking

Today

To think

I think about three words

A flash

In skies

Two birds

Just driving

To feel

Caring

There are nights

Some beige

Words leaving

Sometimes

Watching a screen

What if I was colourblind

You know

Cancer

Knowing

Is a colour

Soms

Payback

Sleepy eyes

Grey light

Sleeping

A new day

Like an empty bag

Eyes

All is wrong