Weights

I feel weight 

An unbearable weight

Failure

Pain

And some light

My made up story

With story being life

Failed in work

Failed in love

Succeeded with kids

Succeeded with friends

And failed with friends

No more drama

Just me

I fucked up

I made mistakes

I lied to myself

I thought to big

I fucked up

I dreamed

And the dream was just a dream

Career gone

Health gone

Sports is sports

Just kids remain

Should I go?

Should I leave?

Should I flee?

Should I set them free? 

Left and right hand writing

Colours gone

Only black only white

No grey

No rainbow

Just clarity

Just fucked up

I’m in pain 

I cause pain